Tuesday, September 23, 2003

Old and lonely...

I was watching the second telecast of President Star Charity last saturday...
it's quite good and hilarious..too bad it's very short...
but one segment of it showed this old lady in a old folks home...
she looked really lonely but insisted that she can get by on her own...and happy where she is now...
she said her niece...her only relative...visits her once a week, sometimes once every two week...
it got me thinking about old age...
I know, I know...it's still a long way to go...here I am,not even past my teenage years and now I'm thinking about old age ? get real...
yeah...but sometimes it's good to have a future projection of yourself...so you roughly know where are you going to...
so that time I ask myself...do I want to be like that ? forgotten...
no way...there's two ways to overcome this...
one...you make sure that you are constantly needed and loved by the people around you...'cos people love you only when they need you...cynical thought alert...
or, two, you don't let anyone remember you well...got it ? if you are not remembered...how can you be forgotten ?
'cos it hurt much more when the people you love and care about forgot about you...and there you are clinging to a hope and a memory that someday that person will remember you again...
so now I just got to choose which one I want right ?
I wish it's that simple...
all I know is that I want to enjoy my old age...enjoying life...and die well...