Crap session: The saga continues...

let the crap session begins...once more...
okay, where do I start...hmm...

firstly...no scholarship offer for me...none whatsoever...zip, nada, nil, kosong, nothing...
I got ntu offer but I want the nus one...and I don't even know when they are going to release the result...
that's what I'm cursing this whole week long...
why the hell nus and ntu can't release their posting results at the same time ?
for goodness sake...people are confuse out there...including me, yes...
like I've already said, ntu has offered me a place in their comp enging faculty...the stupid thing is that I must reply by 3rd of may and pay $100 deposit...
no secret that I prefer the nus faculty...so if I want that one I must wait right...but what will happen to the ntu offer...if I refuse it and suddenly I don't get the nus offer...I'm dead...gone...annihilated...
but if I want to keep it safe, I'll lose $100 to confirm that place and I don't even know whether I can cancel it later on...or they might force me to go to ntu...
see how stupid it is...
now, no scholarship came knocking and I don't fuckin know what I'm gonna do if I don't get one...
my parents will be terribly dissapointed I guess...
but I'm more concern that I'm gonna be a burden to them again...
I don't want that...I wish I can live my life without having to ask them for money or help...their condition is not that swell either...
sigh...
confused...I want to move job also...make more money...maybe got some tutees...
money...!!!
so many not-so-good-things happened...well, shit happens right ?
whatever happened, happens right...
sigh...
talking about other things...I finished reading hearts part 1 but still reading half of everything...
I love hearts...honestly...and I told fie that...don't know she believe or not...nami rather quiet though...can't wait to read the whole story...
ps:good luck on the writing fie...must give me to read k...

oh ya, boss have been gone for the past 3 days...office hours never have been so fun...they're practically paying me to read comics and surf the net...and writing this blog...haha...
they must go more often man...hehe...

and the shit stops here...
adios...