Write it one more time...with feelings...

I was reading some things that I wrote in the past...writings, poems, quotes...
or at least I think they are that...
like I've said...I'm not a good writer...but, it was kinda fun looking at them again...
I was reading a poem that I wrote for wati's bdae...and from there I remembered what happened at that time...
we seldom talked and kinda lost contact...so I wrote her a poem kinda saying that "hey, your friend is still here..."...she kinda get what I meant...
then I was reading the thing I wrote for ikan...
what I was trying to say was that I'm over what happened in the past...let's start over and be friend...I guess she didn't get that...
ha..ha..
well, it's just funny how these writings were the only way for me at that time to say something to these people...
I guess, I've always have trouble expressing my thoughts and feelings...
what makes me mention all this is that I've kinda change...grow...
now it's easier now for me to say things to my close friends...things that I usually keep to myself...
of course, being a close friend of mine is no simple feat...
it takes a helluvatime for me to trust someone...years...
so in the end...most of my secrets stay with me anyway...
:P