Just a crazy thought

fiuh...
it's been a while...
like I've said before...it's hard to get computers these days...
actually, I've got nothing much to say...
I've just finished reading this book called 'Intimacy' and 'Midnight All Day' by Hanif Kureishi...
it's mainly about people who have mistress, or already divorced or having affairs...stuffs like that...
the odd thing that I see...or I think I see...is that some of the people there crave for love...or at least some form of love...
they need it like love is some kind of necessity...a routine...a desperate thing to have...
I don't like that idea...love, for me, should never be a routine...a routine is just a mundane thing...
love should never be like that...it should be spontaneous and 'crazy'...
I know it's kinda typical...but the book disturbed me...
I know also that I've been saying that I envy people who have something to attach themselves to...
but I'm not desperate to attach myself to something...at least not to make it a mundane thing...

another thing is that in that book...attachment and all those love stuff are merely a temporary thing...
those things that you can dispose off when you don't like it anymore...
although I don't entirely object to that idea...but...something's wrong...
it might be true but you can't hurt other people while doing it...both party must agree that it is the end...
argh...I can't think clearly now...it's just my crazy opinion...about crazy stuff...
ha..ha..ha..