Wheel...Of...Life...

Have you ever heard of the wheel of life ?
the one which suppose to turn in everyone's life ?
sometimes you are up enjoying your life like nobody cares...
at other times, you are down feeling like shit or crying like hell...
of course, usually, most of the times you are at the middle feeling quite neutral...
why am I talking about this ?
it's because I suspect that my wheel is stuck with me at the bottom...or somewhere near there...
why ? when bad things happen to you continously, you got to suspect something...
then you might ask, "what's so great about your sufferings that it is greater than, let's say, children in Africa ?"...
no...the things that happen to me might not be greater than those things that happen to those children...but hey, it's my blog...so let me complain...ha..ha..
so now let me tell you my story...believe me...for some of you...it's nothing spectacular...
it all started when I was in primary 5...my family got into a financial difficulty...
everything went down after that...I got my first taste of riding public transport at that time...
believe me..it was bad...public transport in Indonesia was and is horrible...
then the endless fighting between my parents...they continue to fight or even hate each other for like 3 years or so...
I hate those times...because I could not say anything...to prevent it...or just to scold them for fighting because of stupid and trivial things...
then when everything began to look better...my father had a stroke...
he forgot almost...everything...our names...what happened...God, he even forgot how to count...
fortunately, he is a strong man...when most people became paralysed or even die because of it...he survived and recovered...
then, I got scholarship to Singapore and everything is fine for 3 years...
now, my father got another stroke attack and it hit his eyes...
he could barely see anything...
I pray it's just a temporary thing...if not...he might lose his job...and income...
that's about it...nothing spectacular right...
I thought I just shared it out...because most of the times I just keep it inside but sometimes you need to let it out...although to a void net...
let me hear no echo...