Fear of the end...

have you ever feel afraid of somehing ?
not something physical though, like spiders or snakes, but something intangible...something emotional...
those feelings that you dread and scared of...
some people scared of being lonely...some others scared of being in front of many people...those things...
well, personally, I scared of an end...and being forgotten...
everything has a start...it's a wonderful experience...everyhting happy and lovey-dovey...
but sometimes we forget that there's the other side...the end...
nothing last forever rite ? anything can only last for a certain period of time...nothing is eternal...
then what would you do if you've reached the end of something ?
what would you do if you've reached the end of a friendship ? whatever the cause...
feeling sad for eternity or just move on ?
that's what I'm afraid of...because I've experienced it many times...
childhood friends, schoolmates, best friends...all of them promised to stay in touch...
so few did...and sometimes you got sick of it you don't bother anymore...
you just tired of starting a new deep friendship...the one that truly matters if in the end...it ends...
why bother ? if you just going to get hurt and sad...why ?
reaching the end will lead to my next fear...being forgotten...
obviously, when your relationship (whatever it is) has reached the end...there will be one point of time when you will be forgotten...
the memory of you and your friendship will fade away...slowly, but sure...
isn't it sad that your precious memory, some undeniably wonderful, will be taken away from you...and from the other person...while you know that some of these memories affect your life in a not so minor impact...
disturbing...at least for me...
in the end...everytime you'll meet new people in your life, firstly you'll get the feeling, "yeah, new people means new friend..."...but then another will say, "but, are you sure it will last ?"...
then you'll walk away...
depriving yourself of a chance before even opening it...
are you like this ? well, I am although I tried very hard not to...
maybe I'm too cynical or pessimistic...
but surely I'm not born like this...