Saturday, March 12, 2005

The day after...

Right now, I'm wondering whether it's actually good to get what you want, what you really really want. Something that you dream of, something that you long for.
Everything good must come to an end. It's true. It must end at some point of time. It might be short or it can be long. If it's long, really long, I'm talking about life-long period here, then congratulations, your life must be a bed of roses everyday.
But how about the rest, all those who can only taste happiness for a short period of time ?
When it's just a dream, you long for it of course, but you know it's there and it can be something to pull you up when you're down. It is unattainable, but you know you have it just beyond your grasp.
Now, let's say you finally got what you want for an hour, for a day, for a year, for ten years, for whatever period of time. For that period of time, you have what you've always dreamt of. Even then, at the back of your mind, you'll always know that it'll end someday.
Okay, let's say you're in total bliss, you don't realise that it'll be over someday or you simply refused to acknowledge it. You're happy, the sun is always shining, the birds are singing love songs and there's that certain feel in the air.
But one day, Baam, it's over. Finish, the end.
And you're back to your pathetic life just like the one before it all started.
But now, but now, you know that you've tasted the best. You've lived a better life. The sun was brighter, the birds were singing a better song and the air has lost that particular feel. And your life will never be the same again.
And now you live your life with the memory of better days. Miserable, with double the sense of longing than the one you've had before. The sense of emptiness and loneliness inside of you are excrutiatingly painful. And the thought of it can never leave your mind.
That's why drugs are dangerous you see, it's because you can't live without them. That withdrawal symptoms.
And happiness is the most dangerous drugs there is. It's not easily attainable as other chemical mixes that were created to substitute happiness.
So, isn't it better to not have what you want, what you long for in the first place ?
Isn't it better to just dream it thinking that you'll never get it ?
Isn't it better than to live your life with that sense of emptiness ?
Isn't it better than wasting your live trying to find again that one thing that's irreplaceable ?
Isn't it better to live longing than to live trapped in the past ?
Dream should always stay as a dream.
As Wings put it aptly, "Dream should be unreachable to have a meaning."


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