May I have this dance ?

I was talking with ananda and steph when the subject of asean dance suddenly came into the picture...
asean dance is the time when asean scholars supposed to have fun...by dancing and all...
believe me...scholars are just normal human being...
anyway, that conversation reminds me of the asean dances that I have been to...

I have went to 6 asean dances...4 in secondary and 2 in jc...
I must say that the secondary dances have more memories than the jc ones...
the first dance was undoubtedly the best...I slow danced with 9 girls and was having fun...they are all my friends of course...
the second dance , I danced with 2 girls and I was in the asean committee at that time...
the third dance, I danced with the one that matters at that time...my last dance in secondary...
the fourth dance, I sat out of it...didn't have the will to dance anyway...
the fifth one was in jc...I danced with wati and the dance as a whole is quite fun...
the sixth dance and my last one...I sat out of it again...didn't want to dance in the first place...and the temptation of playing cards was too big...ha..ha..

you see...I wasn't a really active participant in this kind of dance...
I never dance fast dance and I don't do much slow dance either...
even if I do dance, it will be with my friend or someone I'm really comfortable with...
most of the time...I'll be at some corner talking with my friends or playing cards or sit idly or trying to gather enough courage to ask someone to dance with me...or worse siting in one corner looking at her without the courage to ask her to dance...
the dance was one of those rare chances to dance with someone you like or simply to dance...
I did it once...but unlikely to happen again...in fact, it is impossible to happen again since the last dance was over and I sat that one out playing bridge...
anyway...most of the time, the person that matters wasn't there...
and now she matters less...
and each time...the 'attraction' of asean dance becomes lesser and lesser...
the only thing that made me go to the last one was the chance to meet up with my other friends...and I did...

thinking about these dances bring back memories...
some good ones...some I rather not think about...
sometimes I wish I can turn back time...
I wish...