IDIOT...!!!

sometimes I can't believe how stupid I can be...
I know I'm stupid and idiot and slow and all that...but...ngyah...
I'm such an super idiot sometimes...okay, most of the times...sigh...
why am I cursing myself ? here's the story...
at 30th of december, I was emailing with wati...and she asked me whether I've submitted the form for sembcorp & st scholarship...
I thought for what ? 'cos at that time, I thought the deadline is march...
so I checked the form and guess what...the deadline is 2nd of jan...
then I cursed myself for a few minutes...
"kres!!!!$!%@&!%^&@#%&^@#%^&@%# stupid idiot...!!!!"
I can't believe I forgot such an important thing and I never checked...
the form is still blank and I never touched it again since I received it at the moe meeting...
then, I thought, "okay, forget it...I'll never submit it ontime with the new year and all."
so I was prepared to forget about it and just apply for asean...
then I looked through the form...they never asked for essay so what I must do is basically to fill up the form and give other things they need...so simple...
then I saw the magic line..."S$6000/annum"...
six thousand freaking dollars per year...compared to asean S$4300...
then I decided to just emailed the office to see whether I can submit it pass the deadline...
I said I can't submit it ontime because I haven't received my SAT1 score, which is true...of course I haven't received it, I'm here in jakarta while the result is sent to s'pore
fortunately, they said I can just mail it now and give the sat1 score later...
so, my chance is still open although after looking at my achievement...ha..ha..well, it doesn't hurt to try right ? :p
now, I must think how to give them my sat1 score...hmmm...